We Are The Punakawan




Today would have been Panni's 94th birthday.
When I began to think of how to honor her today, my little poem, "We Are The Punakawan," came to mind. It popped out of me on April Fool's Day, 1997--Omigod, so long ago?--while I was sitting outside the Moosewood Restaurant in Ithaca, New York, awaiting a table. I sensed a fellow "pretender's" pretensions, and--POOF!--out it came. I'd been doing a lot of reading about the Indonesian wayang, but to have focused on the punakawan--the clowns--turned out to be one of the major signs of what was to come.
Panni liked it very much. So much so, that I placed a copy of it in her casket, along with the small crocodile wood happy-sad mask I had brought back from Bali. She really liked that, too.
Doesn't it make sense that, if I'm a Punakawan, that Panni was, too? Which one, though, I wonder?
Happy Birthday, Panni!
Love, Ninina
WE ARE THE PUNAKAWAN
WE SIT ON THE FENCE AND LOOK AT BOTH SIDES—
WE KNOW THE HEIGHTS AND THE DEPTHS:
WE ARE THE PUNAKAWAN.
WE’RE THE FOILS, THE COURT JESTERS,
THE PROVERBIAL FOOL—
WE LAUGH WITH YOU, WE CRY WITH YOU.
WE CAN FEEL BOTH YOUR ELATION AND YOUR PAIN:
WE ARE THE PUNAKAWAN.
WE CAN MAKE YOU HAPPY, WE CAN MAKE YOU SAD:
WE REFLECT YOUR EMOTIONS,
THE EMOTIONS OF THE WORLD.
HOW AND WHY CAN WE DO THIS?
BECAUSE WE FEEL,
BECAUSE WE KNOW.
BECAUSE…
WE ARE THE PUNAKAWAN.
GEORGINA MARRERO
APRIL 1, 1997


